Perpisahan

Suka sekadar saja , suka berpada-pada, kelak ia akan meninggalkanmu suatu ketika.

Jangan perpisahan mengaburi fikiran dan tindakanmu.

Jangan pernah bergantung pada manusia , saat dia tiada kau lemah.

Apapun perpisahan itu, doakannya supaya sentiasa dirahmati Allah, dilindungi Allah. Pasti hati lebih bahagia dan redha.

Yakinlah pada diri dan pertolongan Illahi. Selagi kau mengharap dariNYA, selagi itu Dia sentiasa bersamamu.

Doa padaNYA supaya diberi ganti pada setiap  kehilangan.  Ganti yang lebih baik. Dan kebaikan hikmah yang mencurah. Dan tidaklah dikau merasa sedih kerana kau ada DIA..

Luahan hati yang menghitung perpisahan...

13/6/17
notcar

Penantian

Penantian....

Penantian itu suatu penyeksaan.

Menanti sesuatu yang tidak pasti.

Kadang lesu hampir berputus asa..



Hati sudah goyah

Badan sudah lelah

Otak katakan jangan mengalah

Jangan berserah!

Jangan pasrah!

Kau masih punya ibu dan ayah.



Yang memberi kekuatan hanya DIA

Tuhan yang maha esa

Yakinlah ketetapanNYA

Takdir dan ujianNYA

Segalanya penuh makna

Tersirat hikmah

Yang suatu ketika

Kau pasti memahaminya...


Wahai diri

Duhai hati

Janganlah berduka lagi

Jangan sesekali berputus asa dengan hidup ini..


Sabarlah dalam penantian

Tetapkan pendirian

Tingkatkan kesabaran

Pasti ada ganjaran

Di sebalik dugaan.


Yakinlah di sebalik ujian

Adalah jalan menuju kejayaan

Jika kau mampu bertahan

Berpaksikan keimanan

Seorang yang punya Tuhan..


Sabarlah sedikit saja lagi

Wahai diri yang bersendiri

Mengharap pertolongan Illahi...



:)


~monolog hati yang duka menantikan sesuatu yang tidak pasti~

~dreamygirl~
~notcar~

20/02/17

Otak Dan Hati

Otak dan hati ni selalu jer bertelagah. Ibarat anjing Dan kucing..

Otak kata bertahan
Hati kata tak tahan

Otak kata sebuah impian
Hati kata sekadar angan-angan

Otak kata kuat
Hati kata tak larat

Otak kata semangat
Hati kata penat

Otak ni tak berhenti berfikir
Hati  ni tak berhenti berasa

Dalam tidur otak bermimpi
Hati dan jiwa turut merasai

Lena dibuai mimpi
Saat hati dan otak bersatu hati.

Bila terjaga otak dan hati masing-masing membawa diri.

Jasad yang mengikut acuan hati dan otak yang sering bertelagah pasti kan punah.

Ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa..

Hati itu umpama raja.
Yang mengawal pemerintahan sebuah jasad.

"Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya dalam tubuh manusia ada segumpal daging, jika segumpal daging itu baik, maka akan baik seluruh tubuh manusia, dan jika segumpal daging itu buruk, maka akan buruk seluruh tubuh manusia, ketahuilah bahwa segumpal daging itu adalah hati manusia.” (HR. Bukhari dan Muslim)

Hati heart

Mungkin kau perlu bersihkan hati...wahai diri...

#selftalk #selfreminder
#reflection #puitistonight
#inspirasidiri

23rd February 2017, notcar88

Malaysian TV Channel :TV Al-Hijrah

Malaysian Islamic tv channel to be watched..

I was on two weeks holiday one week ago and I spent most of the time at home, so I got the opportunity to watch one of the Malaysian TV channel, TV AL-Hijrah.  It is the latest free-to-air television network in Malaysia which was just launched more than 1 year ago, in December 2010.  Currently this tv channel broadcasts via UHF to only certain areas in Malaysia and still in the process of installing the transmission to other areas as well. 

         Before the 'advent' of TV Hijrah, Muslims in Malaysia can watch Islamic tv programme via isolated programmme in various other TV channels like TV1, TV2, TV3, TV9 and also via Astro. Astro is one of the most popular tv satellite in Malaysia which has its own Islamic TV programme, Astro Oasis.  However, not all Muslims have the chance to watch it because it is a paid  tv and not free to air.  Hence, TV Hijrah was introduced and now all Muslims are able to watch it free, by using normal tv satellite.  From the time it started to broadcast until now, a lot of improvements has been made and it has received a lot of positive reviews from the people and also, the viewers has increased day by day.

           TV AL-Hijrah broadcasts about Islam in various aspects of life.This includes the Islamic education programme, science, music, drama, business, documentary, arts, history and various other things.  In all the programmes, they show how Islam is incorporated into life and how it works to lead a better life environment.

   I remember one programme I watched, about science.  It relates science with what has mentioned in Al-Quran and explained that every creation in this life has their own reasons.  Everything that God (Allah) creates have their own value and reason for existence which we sometimes never think of or appreciate.  Another programme I watched was about The Theory of Evolution by Darwin. In one theory about human evolution, he claims that human originates from apes species, which is very difficult to accept since we us know that the first human ever is Adam, and then Eve.  So, how come human origins go back to an ape,something like a monkey.  Definitely there is much difference between human,the best creation in the universe and animal.  I myself know this is wrong but I do not know the reason,and never know how the theory can be accepted so by many poeple, even famous people in the period of so many years.  After watching that programme, I have some idea how this is happened.  It is a fraud,and a manipulation of the discovery. More explanation about this you can found in website Harun Yahya.

        Other than that, TV AL-Hijrah also broadcasts about Islam in various countries, how people in different countries and culture practices Islam, despite different environment and the acceptance of Islam itself in that country.  It is nice and interesting to know what people in the other side of the world do in order to practices Islam in life in their own way, but still according to the syarak (Islamic Religios views).  I also watched programme about foods, the halal foods and various cooking styles,different recipes and cuisine available all over the world.

          There is a programme about success story of Muslim people, who maybe poor in money,but rich in heart and dreams.  They maybe just ordinary people,with modest life style but still succeed in their own way.Surely, these people have a very strong faith in God and also the ones who never miss Islam in their life.  Not to forget, there are slot for history of the prophet Rasulullah, his friends and other great, important figures in Islamic history.  Apart fom this,TV Hijrah not only shows about Islam, but also some other things by people from other religions which are useful, beneficial and the lessons from it can be followed.  There are some educational and documentary by non Muslim people but the facts that the input form the programme are so good.

Hence,I personally say this is the best tv programme if you must watch tv, in Malaysia only. hehe..I'm not a  televison admirer but I do watch it sometimes in free time.  If the programme is useful and the knowledge from it can help me to improve in many things,why not..

Thank you.

-3 years ago, by notcar99-

bubblews

My Good Experience Today

Have You Ever Help An Elderly Person Cross The Road?

Today, I went to the groceries to buy some stuffs but to go there, I need to cross the road. On my way there, I saw an elderly Chinese male with a stick on his right hand was already halfway ahead of me. It was a two-way road, with a divider in the centre. When I was just about to cross the road he was already on another side. What surprised me that he walked so slowly and took a small step each time. Initially I thought he was having Parkinsonian like gait but unlikely.

Then I saw another car came from the nearby junction. He looked hesitant to continue crossing as if thinking 'want to cross or not' and then he stopped in the middle of the road. He just stopped there for a moment. The front car in the same speed but I know the driver would slow down if he get nearer and allow the old man to walk first. But I'm quite worried so I hurried toward him and help him to cross. His pace was very slow and definitely was not a normal one. Maybe had a previous stroke, well I don't know. I followed his slow pace, then taking a small stairs and let him go when I satisfied. Maybe he went to some Chinese restaurant or shop I'm not so sure.

What came to my mind was, did he have to do this so many times? With nobody to accompany him? I wonder if he stays on the neighborhood area opposite the road side. Even I myself don't like to cross that road to go to the shops, because cars there are always driven so fast. And usually that road passed by lots of cars. I always make sure to turn right and left well enough and walk very fast. Maybe that time was just before noon, so not much cars pass by. But still, road is a dangerous spot, which is well- known for accident , not only among the drivers, but also the passers-by. Accident is preventable if everyone follows the rule..

Actually deep inside, I felt so happy to help him. This is my first time helping people cross the road, someone whom I don't know, and it just happened like that- action in seconds. Without much thinking but using a common sense. lol.. Still, a very good experience for me. 


-by NOTCAR99-

bubblews

My Story About Enid Blyton

My funny and weird story about Enid Blyton..

                   I remember  when I was in primary school, I love to read storybook very much, especially those about mystery and adventures. I was thrilled to read story about a group of friends who went for a holiday or some outdoor activities somewhere,then engaged  themselves in a mysterious situation where they become ‘detective’. So heroic .That kind of stories make me dream , if I ever experiencing the same situation where I need to be a heroine, to save the poor ones.. 

         One of my favourite storybook  was The Famous Five series written by Enid Blyton. There were a lot of her collections in my school library, so whenever I got a chance to go to the library, I would read the books. Sometimes, I would just borrow it. The surprising thing was that, I read so many of her books yet I never knew  that her real name was Enid Blyton!! Not until a few years after that. Why?? Because,when I saw the author’s name on the front cover of the book, it was written in fancy fonts. The alphabet was continuous with one another. I couldn’t figure out each single alphabet. My eyes read  ‘Enid’ as ‘Guild’. Strange, isn’t it?? But that was the reality. Since Enid Blyton is such a famous author, I’ve heard about her name before. So, I thought this 'Guild Blyton' could be her siblings. Only years after that,or maybe when I started my secondary school I realised my mistake. All these while, I thought 'Guild Blyton' was the author of the books I read, not knowing that the name never exist. Since then, I have to reset my mind and brain about the fact. It it not easy to change something which you believed for long. Even until now sometimes, I still think that Guild Blyton is the author. :-D

                   How did I find out my mistake? I  found the same book series with same title but the book has  different cover and publication language. It was in English. Back then,the same series I read was published in Malay language. So I looked at the writer’s name. It was Enid, not Guild. And,actually I never came across the name Guild Blyton anywhere other than that I used to before. In addition,when I asked some of my friends about any writer  by the name Guild Blyton, none of them said yes. So,this strengthened the fact that I was wrong. When I think back, I feel that was funny, and so pity of me. But of course,my friends just laughed when I told them about this. For years I read her books and I keep wondering so many times about this 'Guild' name. I have uncleared doubt and uncertainty with me, but I tried to assure myself that I might be right.

               And  worse than that,I thought that she is ‘he’. Well,Enid sounds like a male name for me. Just until recently I realised my mistake. So,the lesson I learnt was, if we have any doubt, don’t just let them be. We have to ask, or searching anywhere for the answer. It never hurts just  by asking  people to clarify our doubt about something. Sometimes we don’t bother about it because we don’t think it is important, or maybe it is not our concern. But the ugly truth is,we always assumed we are  right in fact we are wrong. And it can be a lifetime mistake...

--by NOTCAR99-

bubblews

I May Not Be Your First

I remember a novel I read. 

A guy loved his previous lover very much and it's difficult to accept a new girl who came into his life.
He was terribly heartbroken and separated unwillingly with his previous love.
He was afraid to fall in love again and tried to deny his growing feeling towards a new girl who light up his life .
He let his own best friend take the girl but feel jealous inside, struggling to keep himself cool.
Can he cool down himself doing that??--No..of course not..
Finally he followed his heart's will and confessed to the girl.

And the girl said, "I may not be your first, but I really want to be your last'.

So sweet.. that's make me think..is our first ones that important, until we forget to enjoy the remaining part our lives? There's much more untouched happiness waiting ahead. Never lose hope. The first is always memorable but that doesn't mean our second is no good at all. In fact, it's frequent that our second or next experience would be much better. Because we learn from past experience and trying to improve it. Hence give ourselves a chance, to live happier with what we have around us, and always be grateful. 


-by NOTCAR99-

bubblews

I Want To Be Your First

Ever have this dream- I want be his or her first..

How nice it feels to be someone's first. The feeling can't be compared to having someone's ex. ahah..Before that, please..
Don't take this as an insult or discouragement. What has happened, already happened, forget it and move on. Take it as a life-lesson,to make us becoming better and mature. For the starters, seek knowledge and prepare yourself to face the challenging world.

Want to be the first..

-lover/wife/husband-

The tip is control your heart. From the young age. From the earliest time possible. That means you must have a focus and goal in life.

Put important things first. Avoid distractions. Achieve your dream. Gain more knowledge.

Once you get ready and stable, and think you're able to guide other person in your life,--look for it, and try to be definite.

Yeah, I'm going to make him/her as my lifetime partner-husband/wife. Not just a boyfriend or girlfriend.

Actually, while work on your dream, you should start to pray to HIM, to give you the soulmate you want.

Later, you will realise all the patience, sacrifices, perseverance are well paid..
You will feel more satisfied, grateful and special..
Be patient, work hard, and never give up.

If many people are actually doing/practising this, the chances that they're going to be the first to someone is high... -smile-

-by NOTCAR99-

bubblews

Temptation

~lovely instrumental song~

Temptation..
Is like an invitation
Something that pulling me
Attracting my sight
Captivating my heart
Makes the heart stir
Yearning for desire..


Temptation..
Look beautiful and delicious
Nice to look at
Wonderful to hold onto it
A potentially joyful event
That might create good memories..


Irresistible temptation..
is tempting me
tormenting me inside
makes me want to have it
makes me want to get it
makes me greed with will and hopes


The temptation..
always visiting this heart
popping out again and again 
in this conscious mind
disturbing the tranquility that exists.


Sometimes it's a good thing
that's tempting me.

Sometimes it's a bad influence
that allure me to destruction.


I need to be wise
in judging the temptation
what it offers to me in this life
and which side it falls into,
the sinful or inspiring ones..


How strong..
the power of temptation 
I need to control the desire
And tried to resist the effect
it had in me.

...............


Many times,
I strongly feel that
I want to go ..
I want to have it..

But..
Can't afford to fulfill 
the demands of a temptation


Maybe time is not just right
Due to obstacles coming over
Or may be it's simply not meant for me
And never and never destined for me
For an unknown reason to this limited mind
But HE knows what's the best


Oh! please be patient
The time just not yet come..


Be patient
You have the wish and will 
but it's just the time and 
everything seems not allowing you
to go through it..

Believe in HIM..



Just not yet..


-notcar99-

Membelah Langit Biru

Membelah Langit Biru
Bas bergerak laju 
Memecah kesunyian kota
Ku jenguk ke luar tingkap
Ku lihat ke langit biru
Subhanallah,sungguh indah sekali ciptaan-MU.

Langit membiru
Cuaca yang cerah
Aku termenung sendirian
Sampai bila langit yang indah
ini mampu ku lihat..
Datang lagi persoalan
Kenapa langit itu berwarna biru?
Adakah kerana pantulan dari laut?
Atau mengikut teori fizik,
Yang dinamakan 'Rayleigh scattering'?
Dan kenapa pula laut itu biru?
Pantulan dari langitkah?
Namun ada kalanya langit tidak sebiru laut
Ada masanya pudar di balik awan
Yang ku pasti langit tidak selalunya cerah
Warnanya berubah
Tidak tetap..
Namun saat ia biru
Ku rasa aman
Sejuknya terasa
Bukankah biru simboliknya damai
Sesuatu yang menenangkan
Bersama angin bertiup
Menandakan cuaca yang indah
Syukur pada-MU.

Namun ada sesuatu di sana
Menarik perhatianku
Aku mengukirkan senyuman
Dua garisan putih membelah langit
Aku pasti ia bukannya awan
Seolah-olah bergerak ke dua arah berlawanan
Dua garisan bertembung
Menghasilkan satu abjad Romawi.

X bermaksud anu
Atau 'unknown'
Sesuatu yang tidak diketahui
X simbol untuk menanda
Pilihan yang dingini
X tandanya 'salah'
Bagi jawapan yang tidak benar
X membawa banyak maksud
Simbol dalam khidmat pesanan ringkas
Abjad yang unik banyak gunanya.

Aku tersenyum lagi
X yang ku fikirkan tika ini
X yang amat kena sekali pada masanya
Adakah kebetulan atau suratan
Sesuatu yang dirancangkah?
Namun yang kuyakini
Dalam hatiku
'X di atas langit biru'
Tidak memberi makna yang tertentu
Pada diri ini
Kerana aku menyukai biru kerana warnanya
X kerana keunikannya
Bukan kerana apa-apa..
haha

-notcar99-

Never fall in love..

Never fall in love with the wrong person.
Don't be easily swayed away by emotions of love.Endure it.

Control your heart,your desire.Just wait patiently,the time will come finally,if that's your destiny..I'm tired of marriage worries in some people..If you really want to get married,prepare yourself.Don't just throw unnecessary emotions here and there,telling about your never ending marriage dreams.Be serious,straight to the point,whether want or not.at that point of time.If not sure yet,leave it first,until you become very sure of your feelings,your decision that you made.At the same time,set a positive thinking and pray.Some people say that if you continuously say or wishing for something,that might turn true,or real.But where's the effort of improving yourself?Put the effort too.And distract yourself from worries over something that will not help you anywhere,at all.If you do something that's useful,something around you are going to change,so with the chances that you might get..

Love never wait.
Love never choose.
Love is unconditional.

But..
You can choose.
You can plan.
You can control.

Because you have the power.
You have the ability.
Ability to decide what you want to be.

Hence,protect your heart.
Don't waste it for bad love.
Which is merely temporary.
Only to pass the time.
To fulfill your desire to feel,to be loved.
Love that is not qualified to be yours.
Leave it.
Avoid it.

Love is pure.
Love is clean.
Hence take care of those feelings.
Until the most suitable person received it.
And you deserve it.
After all the patience,perspiration and perseverance.

Just be patient..

-notcar99-

Hope

Hoping for something..

Hope should never cease..

There's a problem
Keep haunting this body
That never disappear
Always come disturbing
Until I feel suffocated
Become so stressed
Fed up,angry,sad..

That thing
Can't say it aloud
Only share it with God
Tell what this heart feels
Asking Him for help
Because only Him can help
Nobody else..

Even that thing is something's shameful, a sin,mortal sin,unforgivable ..
He covers it..
If a person repent,
Truthfully,with sincerity,
Asking for forgiveness,
He will,He may forgive..

How if a sin keep repeating over and over..
You repent and repent,
But you never fail to repeat it..
You regret over it
Feeling sad because you are so weak
Weak to fight the temptation of the satan
and the nafs inside yourself..

When this will be over
Until when will be thinking about the same problem
That never been resolved
Never permanently stop
until when..
until heart become so rigid?
until heart ignore it ..
because you have given up..
Never..please
Never lose hope
Inside you and to Him..

Tired..
Of losing spirit
Losing happiness
Losing true meaning in life
Repeating the same thing
Never really changing
Never really repenting

What is the meaning of this life
If you can't know the aim of living
The reason for survival
Only go with the flow
Life become so bored
And useless,and just has nothing in it
Lifeless life,loneliness
All suffering is futile..

If you can't make yourself useful
If you can't love yourself
If you can't love God (Allah)
And the prophet Muhammad
If you can't follow His order
If you violating yourself
Every now and then
...
Then you are taking this life for granted..
You aren't qualified to get His blessing..
Jannah is a only dream then..

Hope..

I still wish for that hope
Hoping that
Problem will be solved
The unsettling feeling inside me to stop
bothering me
Hoping to change totally,
To a better me,like a new person
That has just born..or reborn..
I want to leave all the things that I don't want to with me
Qualities that doesn't need to be kept
Want to be someone different
Want to forget all the bad memories
Want to throw away the sadness,the loneliness,the darkness,
Want to have a new episodes of life..
With a new motivation
That keep me going..

Please,
Dear God,
Dear Allah,
Please help me
To reform myself
Help me to change
Help me grow to a better human
Only you..
I hope my heart always filled with You
Remembering you,Allah..
So I can always keep myself in check
Every moment in my life
Everything that I do
So I will never repeat those mistakes again

Hopefullly this hope never cease..
And all the wishes come true..

If God's (Allah) will..Insya-Allah..


Expression of a stressed heart,
-notcar99-

Pantun Tentang Kesihatan-3

Jual karpet tapi tak laku,
Hati gusar, ke hulu ke hilir,
Bila tersedu semua terpaku,
Cepat-cepatlah meneguk air.

Malam yang sepi kulihat purnama,
Dihiasi sahut-sahutan cengkerik,
Minum air hilangkan dahaga,
Badan segar mata pun celik.

Manis rasanya seperti gula,
Berwarna oren kekuning-kuningan,
Khasiatnya banyak sangat berguna,
Minumlah madu, jadikan amalan.

-notcar99-

Pantun Nasihat-3

Ikan kerapu,ikan gelama,
Masuk kuali goreng sahaja,
Hati itu kunci utama,
Rosak ia,rosak semuanya.

Kuih bergedel menjadi pilihan,
Buat pengikat perut yang lapar,
Jangan berlebihan mengikut perasaan,
Kembalikan semula semangat yang pudar.

Hatimu gusar fikiran bercelaru,
Semangat yang hilang tiada berganti,
Kepada Allah lah engkau mengadu,
Tempat meluah duka di hati.

-notcar99-

Think

We must think before doing anything..Do you agree?


I always tell this to myself
Think before you say anything
Think before you do something
Think twice if you’re not sure what to say
Or just keep quiet
Keep it to yourself


Because once you say a word
It gives an impact to your surrounding
Once you do something
You will be responsible for your actions
And you must know that
What has been said cannot be unsaid
What has been done cannot be undone


But..
We are humans
We are never free from mistakes
And we also change with time
So with our emotions and feeling
They never remain constant
The same thing happens to me
Whatever I feel today,I may not feel anymore the next day
What did I say today,may not be applicable for tomorrow
I may forget about it
Because I know
When today is over
It  becomes a past
Past is past,will never come again
Tomorrow is future,
We will try the best for the next part of our lives
And nobody knows what will actually happen next
We can only plan,God will decide
So be careful,be aware,keep in mind
That the same incident might be repeated
Like the idiom ‘History Repeats Itself’.

-notcar99-

Why is it so difficult to change?

We need to change for the better..

Saying difficult to change

Will not help anything

Just a lame excuse

I tried and tried very hard or slowly

Many times

To correct what has been wrong

To improve all the defect

To return to the right track..

But sometimes in the way

I was lost and went astray

Nobody but me can help myself

Even friends or family

They can offer support,advices

But the main is

Depends on me..

God will never change people’s destiny

Until they change it themselves

Think back..think again and again

You want to change or not

Please..be sincere..to your heart

Be true to yourself

Changing to something that you are so unfamiliar

Will be irritably difficult

But you still have to change

Do you need time??

Till when??

You will never know when will you die

Don’t be so confident that you can live longer

Just because you are still younger

If you are destined to die today

You will be left alone in your own grave

Together with your own sins..

I feel afraid thinking about the end of my life

And about the destiny of my next life

The forever one…

I always think 

Our next life will be forever..n forever…

There will be no end

I can go crazy thinking so deep about that

I can become confused

That  thing is over my limit of thinking..

I myself..

Always thinking to change

Always been reminded from time to time

That life is just temporary

What actually we are looking for

We are seeking for God’s blessing

That’s the actual reason for living

But.. are all my actions are blessed by God?

I waste so much  time

Creating sins everyday

Either prominent one

Which I did it in full consciousness

Or even without noticing it

And after doing it,I regretted

Then i did it again

Why..and why..

Why is it so difficult to change

Very hard to restrain myself

To control my actions

I know but I ignore

There are certain things

That is not suit myself

I feel like I’m not being myself

I cannot be perfect

I’m just the real me

Suddenly change to an angel

Like a hypocracy to me

But I need to be sincere

Most important thing is what i wish for

What is my intention

What’s inside my heart..

But,

I don’t know why

My heart..seems like

Worrying over something

Never feel at peace

What’s happen to it??

Heart,oh heart..please

Remember God

Only Allah..please

Hope i can change

For the better…

-notcar99-

It’s So Hurting

Assalamualaikum and hello.


It’s a kind of poem that express my emotions..


It’s so hurting
It’s hurtful to not to be accepted by people
I don’t know what is wrong
I tried to speak nicely
But still..
I’m being ignored..
I have tried to change..
And tried to talk with them
Have tried to
Look interested in their talk
Have tried everything


But still
Being ignored..
It’s so hurting
The pain i feel inside my heart
These sadness and loneliness
Are tormenting me..


It’s not easy to make a new friends.
Not easy to maintain a good friendship
Not easy to find someone
Who is willing to understand this heart..
This heart is so fragile
I just don’t know
My black,bitter memories
Keep haunting me
Made me a pessimist
Sometimes..


I’m afraid of this and that..
So many things inside my head
That never stop worrying me 
I don’t want to feel disappointed again
I don’t want hope
I don’t want promise
I just want some attention..
And some love..from friends..
I miss that..
Oh,I’m sad again
Please,don’t cry
This heart is so fragile
So weak just wanting to break
Into pieces
Anytime..
And when this heart is being hurt
It sends impulses to my brain..
Then to my eyes..
To let the tears come out
To let me cry


Hate is a powerful emotion
That should be avoided


Sometimes i feel like pretending to be happy
But actually i am not
By heart never feel calm
I miss something in my life
But i don’t know what
I tried searching and searching
What is missing
But it’s difficult
With no one by my side
To support me
In and out
Heartily..


I feel alone again
Loneliness creeps around me
So I pray to my only and only one
My God,Allah,the creator of the universe
To help me
To get rid of this uneasy feeling
The uncertainty in my life
To ease the pain that never ends
Because i know
Only Him can help me
Nobody else..






Read more: http://authspot.com/poetry/its-so-hurting/#ixzz1z4bbhFXJ

Why A Woman Cries

Why a woman starts crying?Various reasons..here are some of them..

Why a woman cries
Because she gets emotional easily,
Making her feel touchy-feely,
When hearing other’s sad story,
As if it is her own life journey.


Why a woman cries
Because she was hurt terribly,
By the closest ones or anybody,
Even simple words not taken lightly,
She always being hurt unknowingly.


Why a woman cries
Because she feels very lonely,
When those she loves are so busy,
Leaving her lost and feeling scary,
Hoping for heart to be tended lovely.


Why a woman cries
Because she gets angry,
She can’t say it directly,
Don’t want to hurt anybody,
Hence shedding tears slowly.


Why a woman cries
Because she feels regret and guilty,
Remembering the sins and past story,
She pray and crying non-stoppingly,
Until she stops herself then she’s happy.


Why a woman cries
Because she is blessed with sensitivity,
To all her beloved persons very deeply,
Although they might hurt her awfully,
She endure it with all the possibility.


Why a woman cries
Because she feels so pity,
To those who lives in misery,
She wanted to help like crazy,
She pray they'll make it through hopefully.

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Why a woman cries
Because she knows it is healthy,
Pouring out her feelings satisfactorily,
Rid of stress, cleanses souls effectively,
Emotions fall to the lowest level peacefully.


Why a woman cries
Because more hormones in her body,
Controlling her organs very nicely,
Estrogens influences her mood greatly,
All happens perfectly naturally.


Why a woman cries
Because premestrual syndromes comes monthly,
A period time ,and she becomes sensitive excessively,
So bear with her she just act accordingly,
That is the time she cries simply easily.


Why a woman cries
To bear the pain during delivery,
Giving birth for a cute baby,
That will change her life totally,
And making her smiles delightedly.


Why a woman cries
Because she feels her world is so stuffy,
With problem unsolved in reality,
Children fight, husband speaks angrily,
She doesn’t know what to do finally.


Why a woman cries
Because she is always worry,
That if she had done the best already,
To the children and the family,
Will they live altogether happily.


Woman cries
When she feels neglected awfully,
By her own beloved family,
Despite her sacrifices full-heartedly
Nobody seems to care her really..


Why a woman cries
Because she is not manly,
Has a weaker heart and also fragility,
Waiting to break any time daily,
Not even signs, it happens so suddenly.


Why a woman cries
Not because she is creepy,
Man please understand her fully,
She need care and protection from hubby,
Don’t let them get bullied by anybody.


Why a woman cries
Can’t be explained easily,
She can just cry nonsensely,
Can’t avoid that, just let her be,
Then she’ll feel relief instanstaneously.


Why a woman cries remains a mystery,
Don’t worry it’s normal usually,
So be assured, it shows she’s healthy,
Unless you think it differently.

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Why a woman cries continues..

Why a woman cries
Because she feels extremely happy,
Grateful for all she has from God (Allah) the Al-Mighty,
Blessed with loving husband and obedient kiddy,
Keeping her strength up and good spirituality.

Why a woman cries
Because she simply feels happy
She's the creation that satisfy easily,
For every small achievements made daily,
Making husband happy is the greatest glory.


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Nobody but YOU (haiku)

I have nobody but you..


I was alone,

Lost and hopeless,

With nobody but YOU (Allah).

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Tears of broken heart (haiku)

Tears keep falling..


Tears fall,

From unattended broken heart,

Wound that limping the soul.

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