Why is it so difficult to change?

We need to change for the better..

Saying difficult to change

Will not help anything

Just a lame excuse

I tried and tried very hard or slowly

Many times

To correct what has been wrong

To improve all the defect

To return to the right track..

But sometimes in the way

I was lost and went astray

Nobody but me can help myself

Even friends or family

They can offer support,advices

But the main is

Depends on me..

God will never change people’s destiny

Until they change it themselves

Think back..think again and again

You want to change or not

Please..be sincere..to your heart

Be true to yourself

Changing to something that you are so unfamiliar

Will be irritably difficult

But you still have to change

Do you need time??

Till when??

You will never know when will you die

Don’t be so confident that you can live longer

Just because you are still younger

If you are destined to die today

You will be left alone in your own grave

Together with your own sins..

I feel afraid thinking about the end of my life

And about the destiny of my next life

The forever one…

I always think 

Our next life will be forever..n forever…

There will be no end

I can go crazy thinking so deep about that

I can become confused

That  thing is over my limit of thinking..

I myself..

Always thinking to change

Always been reminded from time to time

That life is just temporary

What actually we are looking for

We are seeking for God’s blessing

That’s the actual reason for living

But.. are all my actions are blessed by God?

I waste so much  time

Creating sins everyday

Either prominent one

Which I did it in full consciousness

Or even without noticing it

And after doing it,I regretted

Then i did it again

Why..and why..

Why is it so difficult to change

Very hard to restrain myself

To control my actions

I know but I ignore

There are certain things

That is not suit myself

I feel like I’m not being myself

I cannot be perfect

I’m just the real me

Suddenly change to an angel

Like a hypocracy to me

But I need to be sincere

Most important thing is what i wish for

What is my intention

What’s inside my heart..

But,

I don’t know why

My heart..seems like

Worrying over something

Never feel at peace

What’s happen to it??

Heart,oh heart..please

Remember God

Only Allah..please

Hope i can change

For the better…

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