I May Not Be Your First

I remember a novel I read. 

A guy loved his previous lover very much and it's difficult to accept a new girl who came into his life.
He was terribly heartbroken and separated unwillingly with his previous love.
He was afraid to fall in love again and tried to deny his growing feeling towards a new girl who light up his life .
He let his own best friend take the girl but feel jealous inside, struggling to keep himself cool.
Can he cool down himself doing that??--No..of course not..
Finally he followed his heart's will and confessed to the girl.

And the girl said, "I may not be your first, but I really want to be your last'.

So sweet.. that's make me think..is our first ones that important, until we forget to enjoy the remaining part our lives? There's much more untouched happiness waiting ahead. Never lose hope. The first is always memorable but that doesn't mean our second is no good at all. In fact, it's frequent that our second or next experience would be much better. Because we learn from past experience and trying to improve it. Hence give ourselves a chance, to live happier with what we have around us, and always be grateful. 


-by NOTCAR99-

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I Want To Be Your First

Ever have this dream- I want be his or her first..

How nice it feels to be someone's first. The feeling can't be compared to having someone's ex. ahah..Before that, please..
Don't take this as an insult or discouragement. What has happened, already happened, forget it and move on. Take it as a life-lesson,to make us becoming better and mature. For the starters, seek knowledge and prepare yourself to face the challenging world.

Want to be the first..

-lover/wife/husband-

The tip is control your heart. From the young age. From the earliest time possible. That means you must have a focus and goal in life.

Put important things first. Avoid distractions. Achieve your dream. Gain more knowledge.

Once you get ready and stable, and think you're able to guide other person in your life,--look for it, and try to be definite.

Yeah, I'm going to make him/her as my lifetime partner-husband/wife. Not just a boyfriend or girlfriend.

Actually, while work on your dream, you should start to pray to HIM, to give you the soulmate you want.

Later, you will realise all the patience, sacrifices, perseverance are well paid..
You will feel more satisfied, grateful and special..
Be patient, work hard, and never give up.

If many people are actually doing/practising this, the chances that they're going to be the first to someone is high... -smile-

-by NOTCAR99-

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Temptation

~lovely instrumental song~

Temptation..
Is like an invitation
Something that pulling me
Attracting my sight
Captivating my heart
Makes the heart stir
Yearning for desire..


Temptation..
Look beautiful and delicious
Nice to look at
Wonderful to hold onto it
A potentially joyful event
That might create good memories..


Irresistible temptation..
is tempting me
tormenting me inside
makes me want to have it
makes me want to get it
makes me greed with will and hopes


The temptation..
always visiting this heart
popping out again and again 
in this conscious mind
disturbing the tranquility that exists.


Sometimes it's a good thing
that's tempting me.

Sometimes it's a bad influence
that allure me to destruction.


I need to be wise
in judging the temptation
what it offers to me in this life
and which side it falls into,
the sinful or inspiring ones..


How strong..
the power of temptation 
I need to control the desire
And tried to resist the effect
it had in me.

...............


Many times,
I strongly feel that
I want to go ..
I want to have it..

But..
Can't afford to fulfill 
the demands of a temptation


Maybe time is not just right
Due to obstacles coming over
Or may be it's simply not meant for me
And never and never destined for me
For an unknown reason to this limited mind
But HE knows what's the best


Oh! please be patient
The time just not yet come..


Be patient
You have the wish and will 
but it's just the time and 
everything seems not allowing you
to go through it..

Believe in HIM..



Just not yet..


-notcar99-

Membelah Langit Biru

Membelah Langit Biru
Bas bergerak laju 
Memecah kesunyian kota
Ku jenguk ke luar tingkap
Ku lihat ke langit biru
Subhanallah,sungguh indah sekali ciptaan-MU.

Langit membiru
Cuaca yang cerah
Aku termenung sendirian
Sampai bila langit yang indah
ini mampu ku lihat..
Datang lagi persoalan
Kenapa langit itu berwarna biru?
Adakah kerana pantulan dari laut?
Atau mengikut teori fizik,
Yang dinamakan 'Rayleigh scattering'?
Dan kenapa pula laut itu biru?
Pantulan dari langitkah?
Namun ada kalanya langit tidak sebiru laut
Ada masanya pudar di balik awan
Yang ku pasti langit tidak selalunya cerah
Warnanya berubah
Tidak tetap..
Namun saat ia biru
Ku rasa aman
Sejuknya terasa
Bukankah biru simboliknya damai
Sesuatu yang menenangkan
Bersama angin bertiup
Menandakan cuaca yang indah
Syukur pada-MU.

Namun ada sesuatu di sana
Menarik perhatianku
Aku mengukirkan senyuman
Dua garisan putih membelah langit
Aku pasti ia bukannya awan
Seolah-olah bergerak ke dua arah berlawanan
Dua garisan bertembung
Menghasilkan satu abjad Romawi.

X bermaksud anu
Atau 'unknown'
Sesuatu yang tidak diketahui
X simbol untuk menanda
Pilihan yang dingini
X tandanya 'salah'
Bagi jawapan yang tidak benar
X membawa banyak maksud
Simbol dalam khidmat pesanan ringkas
Abjad yang unik banyak gunanya.

Aku tersenyum lagi
X yang ku fikirkan tika ini
X yang amat kena sekali pada masanya
Adakah kebetulan atau suratan
Sesuatu yang dirancangkah?
Namun yang kuyakini
Dalam hatiku
'X di atas langit biru'
Tidak memberi makna yang tertentu
Pada diri ini
Kerana aku menyukai biru kerana warnanya
X kerana keunikannya
Bukan kerana apa-apa..
haha

-notcar99-

Never fall in love..

Never fall in love with the wrong person.
Don't be easily swayed away by emotions of love.Endure it.

Control your heart,your desire.Just wait patiently,the time will come finally,if that's your destiny..I'm tired of marriage worries in some people..If you really want to get married,prepare yourself.Don't just throw unnecessary emotions here and there,telling about your never ending marriage dreams.Be serious,straight to the point,whether want or not.at that point of time.If not sure yet,leave it first,until you become very sure of your feelings,your decision that you made.At the same time,set a positive thinking and pray.Some people say that if you continuously say or wishing for something,that might turn true,or real.But where's the effort of improving yourself?Put the effort too.And distract yourself from worries over something that will not help you anywhere,at all.If you do something that's useful,something around you are going to change,so with the chances that you might get..

Love never wait.
Love never choose.
Love is unconditional.

But..
You can choose.
You can plan.
You can control.

Because you have the power.
You have the ability.
Ability to decide what you want to be.

Hence,protect your heart.
Don't waste it for bad love.
Which is merely temporary.
Only to pass the time.
To fulfill your desire to feel,to be loved.
Love that is not qualified to be yours.
Leave it.
Avoid it.

Love is pure.
Love is clean.
Hence take care of those feelings.
Until the most suitable person received it.
And you deserve it.
After all the patience,perspiration and perseverance.

Just be patient..

-notcar99-